Speak For Me.

I want to hate you; I really do. But the older I get and the more I know, it just seems silly. I'm just a tired girl who doesn't know anything and can't get her shit together. I need a break, but where do we find such things? I have so many things I need to do that are overwhelming me. I don't HAVE to live like this, but I take no steps to fix it. I'll never understand. I do my best thinking when I'm down. I could stop this and just take the pill, but for some reason I don't want to. It's my only way of saying "no" that I have left.