Looking back on old posts makes me want to laugh but sad at the same time. I was drowning. My erratic ups and downs were so obvious to everyone but me. Now they almost shock me with their intensity. It amazes me how tired I can be after waking up from a nap.
Listening to Northern Downpour for the second time today. That's kind of amazing for me, am I right? My horoscope for today: "You might be uncharacteristically detached from your feelings today, even if you have to deal with some emotions that bubble up from the depths of your subconscious. Fortunately, you are more than willing to look at them with a bit of amusement now, rather than being overwhelmed by their intensity." This is why I believe in astrology. It works. I'm listening to a song that sends me into an emotional storm with no real issues on a day with THIS horoscope and you're going to tell me there's no connection? Whatever. Next song; lost my will to finish it. Meiko brings me back to this time last year. The weather has been gorgeous lately. I really don't know what's going on in my life right now. Usually I look back and can say. "Ok, that was my _____ phase" or whatever. But for right now, this second, what will I say? I'm not sure. Let's make a list.
Late Winter 2009:
Looking for a job
Hoping for FOB and JM Colorado trip
KCA insanity (aka being over it)
The Warhol Superstars
Gala Darling
iTC
Being in a rut
Researching religions, yoga, betterment, pretty much everything I can think of
And that's all I can think of. I keep going on about how I'm in a rut but I have no idea how to get out of it. The thing is, life isn't BAD right now. Sometimes it's nice with pretty weather and dog parks and jokes, it's just BORING to me right now. Just tired, I think I'll sleep.
PS-the page is white from black for the first time...ever. A sign, yes? Haha, no.
