I have taken an unplanned break from blogging world. Life is too busy and crazy and all over the place to sit around on the internet. I haven't checked my email in four days. If it wasn't for Twitter I'm not sure I'd feel at all like myself right now. In the middle of a four day weekend. Easter weekend, tomorrow is b. urie's birthday. It hasn't hit me...fandom things seem so disconnected from me. I went on FOBR for the first time in months today. It's all so far away from who I am now. I never know how I feel about things like that. I want to make an effort to keep it about the music from now on...in the back of my mind I've had this idea floating around of going one week without looking at an gossip sites...just to see what would happen. Something needs to change.
Wednesday was the last minute All American Rejects show. Such a long, good story. A and E are not the best show buddies, I had my picture taken for some websites, was blown away by ALL the bands that played, met Vedera who were sweethearts, danced and screamed and sang, AAR is always wasted, I love them despite it, I was tired but so happy. "This is the church of the All American Rejects, and you can check your sins at the door." Learned from Edward that it isn't about seeing, it's about the music. I think that's finally getting into my head and I like that. And yet I stood there in the back watching those figures and the bright lights and thought, "This is what I want to do. This. That. Up there. Me. I CAN do that." I've come so far, yet not at all since that November night in 2006.
Thursday I obtained a puppy care of school. Amanda and I named him Oliver. He is a hot mess of puppy adorableness and huge paws and no potty training. Still don't know if he has owners. Everything about his existence is up in the air right now. I want so badly to know how that feels...and yet he has no idea...Thursday and Friday night consisted of parties and drinking and candle lit table talks and rants. It was good. Crazy and irritating but good. As is everything in my life. Today was spent shopping, got some books I've been meaning to pick up and pretty bras and such. I was reading in bed and got the urge to unload my head. It is a full head indeed. And now I shall make a list to make myself feel better.
Things I need to accomplish in the next two days:
-All my random essays/folder work/fact finding missions/assignments for school
-Clean my room so it's at least bearable and open enough for the dogs
-Start organizing/getting rid of all my shit
-Keep up with these crazy dogs and make sure they get exercise
-Find time to read, relax, and breathe
My skin craves summer so badly.
