So the last few days I've been kind of bad. But I know my personality, I take on "projects" or set goals for myself that are pretty ridiculous. I'm hoping this new one I have in mind will take my mind off something else. The theory: by completely focusing/being weird about one thing, I won't think or whatever else about the other thing. It's weird and stupid but it's kind of my logic.
I have to be the mini hostess tomorrow and be kind and gracious to my mother's friends. I have to try my hardest not to laugh in the face of my mother's friend's daughter, who is my age and pregnant. And we are NOT old enough to be getting pregnant. Really I'm just stoked on someone being jealous of me. I'm going to look extra pretty and fierce and funny and sweet and successful and happy and she's going to die of embarassment because she's miserable. Posting deja vu. I've written these words before...whoa. ANYWHO, I want her to be reminded that she got pregnant because she was being used, not because she was loved. It should be great fun for me.
I'm evil and mean, I know. But...just but, ok? The next day I'll do something truly kind, I promise.
