Thursday, April 10, 2008

Drowning.

I have no idea what has happened. One day things were fine-ish and the next I'm being completely ignored, left out, and forgotten. I have no idea what I've done...I'm a wandering blank. No one notices when I slink by in the hall. No one even mutters a "sorry" when I'm knocked in to. Teachers are staring, not with looks of concern, but indifference and impatience. I think I could stop talking completely and no one would notice save for maybe two people, and even they leave me out. I feel I'm not accepted anywhere. I'm just a huge question mark. I'm invisible. I've never felt this before, to the extent that I've stopped caring.
I've always made sure I was heard, known, talked about. Now I just withdraw into my own darkness. In a happy time I'm undeniably sad.

Of course every teenager feels this way. That makes it even worse.
I've never been so obviously disliked...I don't know what's happened to me.