Almost everyone around me is happy, or getting there. And it makes me smile, fills me with a little slice of peace, knowing that. I smile for them because I get to know that someone's life is on track. I'm surprising them with these smiles. I like letting them feel relieved.
But being me, I can't help but wonder about me. When is it going to be my turn? It doesn't bother me as much as it used to, seeing everyone else having their go. I think this is mostly because I know my time is coming. Really this time, I can feel myself standing on this grand edge of it. Adventure. Freedom. Peace. Smiles. Adrenaline. Experience. Opportunity. Hard work, and the payoff. Happiness. I can't wait. Right now I'm not content to wait, but to make it for myself. Definitely not passing on giving out more smiles to everyone else along the way though.
