I don't know what happened. I don't know who I'm writing this to. I want you back. But I never truly felt your whole friendship to begin with. I'm sick of the up and down. This has been my main writing subject for weeks, months. Either be fucking in this with me or stay away completely. I always think it's forever. It never is. I'm sorry it must be awkward for you, but I had no control over your feelings. It is not my fault. More than anything I wish you would just slow the fuck down and stop pretending I'm in the wrong and talk to me about this. Stop fucking acting like nothing is wrong. I'll give you one more chance. I'll listen once. Once. After that I don't see myself having the time.
I don't want it to be this way. But until you can show me something I really did wrong or that hurt you, I won't apologize. My life is changing too rapidly to bring confused characters along for the ride.
