2009 held the most posts on this blog in all the three years I've been writing here. I can't help but to think it was due to boredom. I keep saying "Ugh, 2009 was the most boring year ever." But really, when I look back, that isn't true. I spent a lot of 2009 feeling sad, irritated, or angry. When it wasn't a chore to get through the day, my year was filled with gleaming moments, bright lights illuminating the even brighter rainbow of emotions inside me. Road trips to see an otherwise impossible collection of bands; a throwback to when it all started. Getting what I craved, driving around with friends blasting Blink on perfect fall nights. Things I dreamed of right before my eyes, happening. But I don't wish to look back any longer, I just want to carry what I learned with me into 2010.
I learned: People (boys) who treat you like shit are not worth having feelings for in any way, that there is a stopping point when vodka is involved, when your chest is tight it means no more smoking for the day, a sunburn is good for you every once in a while, self imposed internet breaks are good but rarely work, people who do not know you will never care about you (especially if they only care about themselves), do not let your daydreams hinder you from living your life, your bed and ipod are never too far away, astrology is fantastic for placing reason to why you're feeling a certain way when you don't know why, you can never be too inspired, regrets are a waste of time; just do better from here on out, lists are only useful when you act on them and that I make too many, ideas stay ideas unless you make them your reality, "I'll do it tomorrow" is dangerous, fashion is fun when you create your own style apart from trends, your first job is important; retail is very humbling, Lady Gaga is perfect party time music, at times all you can do is cry and that's okay because it rids you of whatever or whoever it is, your time spent on the internet is largely a crutch and a distraction, sleep schedules are important, a lot of things are better in our heads, the best thing about an outfit is if you feel good in it; being uncomfortable isn't cute, every day you finish is another day you've won.
