It's been a while since I've been around here. I get busy, forget, etc. I get very busy indeed. A bit of what I've been up to in the past five weeks:

School started. Hello, Sophomore Year. New people, new memories, more fun than ever. I'm doing so much every day...a month into it and I've only missed a few days due to real sickeness! I also have one of the highest grades in my Algebra class. I know, right? I'm always running around, trying to show my worth. It took so much to get me here; in the back of my mind there's a constant monologue of "don't fuck up, don't fuck up, do not fuck this up." I'm holding to it all pretty well. But of course there are up days and down days, up hours and down hours too to be honest. I still maintain I'm doing well, though there's things I wish to change as always.

There's dramas but who really expected them to go away? On the block, with school, but whatever. Many new friends and so many good times. Trying my hardest to let go and have fun. I'm succeeding. Just last night included the perfect teenage night: a ladies' night with my friends, driving around blasting bad music, scoring some cigs through a homeless dude, chatting up cute tattoo artists, trips to WalMart for toilet paper, shaving cream, spray paint, silly string, masks, and picking up our new gang bandanas (my idea). Revenge plans! Fucking up a neighborhood, shaving cream penises, being chased down by an old lady, drunk people playing charades, filling up water and shaving cream balloons, silly phone calls, McDonald's, getting random calls from school dudes, realizing I lost this one and won't fuck it up for Irene, going to a lame house party, beer, tripping dudes from Blue Springs, first encounter with weed, couldn't work the bong well, shitty weed in general, split seconds of giggles, jumping on the trampoline! Getting kicked out by some random mother, driving and driving and driving. So much fun, and all I want to do is smoke and drink with these girls and chase down good times.

Times are good. I'm ready for the nostalgia of fall and all the moods. I'm trying to fight off the feeling of be lost, not really having a direction right now because I'm not sure that I do. I want to go for it all and not regret anything, but I'm feeling a need to take stock of my values, morals, and goals.