Oh wow. Some days you're just going about your business, doing your thing, and then something catches you completely off guard. You're kind of shocked, a little bit confused, and sad. Above most things I just want you to be happy. I'm bummed. It's just fresh hurt and surprise and I don't know what to think. I want you to be ok. Happy. Good. And if that means certain people, certain things, then ok. It's all ok.
I wish I could cut away a little bit of the peace I've found and give it to you. It's a very small amount of peace, and I fight it every day, but it is there and I am better for it. I am not relieved to hear this. I don't think I thought I would be hearing something like this. I didn't want you to be UNhappy...I know. I wanted you to be happy, just not with her. It's selfish. And wrong, yes. But you're not even happy with her? It's sad. I'm sad. That you're sad. I don't even know anymore.
I don't know what to think.
