I feel like I'm changing so much right now. And duh, I'm supposed to be. But still, it's surprised me. And I just figured it out. So many things and people are getting on my nerves that never have before. Like I've outgrown them; maybe I have. Which is kind of depressing, but I'd rather know and move on than be miserable later.

I asked someone I haven't spent time with in months to go to a show with me. And for some reason that decision feels really wrong right now. Like, it just hit me that I don't really want to go with this person. But I'm excited at the same time, because they're one of my oldest friends and maybe they've changed too. Maybe they've matured and are more tolerable now. But I don't know. My gut isn't in this one very much. We'll see how it ends up. I just feel so weird and different and weird in my skin. Like, my bones are growing but my skin isn't growing wtih it. I feel like I'm about to pop out of my skin. Crazy visual, huh?

But I've realized I'll always be loyal to one thing. One band. Forever. And I know the internet brings all this shit I don't even want to deal with or laugh at anymore with it. But I'm removing myself from that, when I'm ready. Because I'm not ready. But I will always be here for them.

"Believers never die."