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I feel so beaten down and slow. It seems that when things are steady and...not good/great, but steady in life, that I can't do anything. I can't write. I can't make a damn polyvore! I want to scrapbook/make collages or whatever, but I can't do that either. I'm either too lazy or something has been switched off inside my brain.
It almost makes you miss the misery. Almost.
I no longer feel as if I'm drowning, which is good. But I'm terrified that once school starts, on top of the the job, that I might lose it. Internet > school. But it can be no more, and that sucks, but not really. I don't know. I'm rambling.

PS-learning how to ride a bike sucks.