I don't know why some people(girls) are so mean.
i don't understand why they pick on others and blow something so out of porpotion they lose the reason they went to the mat in the first place, but keep fighting because they can't stand to lose.
i don't know how this got so bad, and i don't know how i can fix it. but the question is-do i WANT to fix it? she certainly isn't a person i want close to me. i want real friends who love and care about me. i don't want things to have to be awful and stressful.
but i refuse to back down. i didn't even start this, therefore, i should not have to apologize, right?
ugh.
i'm soooo fucking sick of human beings right now.
